I just started my last two classes. I am paranoid.
I have never been scared, intimidated or anything about school. But I have to biggest butterflies in my stomach that I could just puke.
I just opened the classes to look at the syllabus and the one class - BUS450 Policy and Strategy Formulation looks so scary. The professor posted a bunch of stuff about the class. Can I just say info overload???
I had to go to the gradebook just to see what is actually due each week because I was getting ready to drop the class and take it next year...lol
Anyway, its not gonna be that bad. I have to take a test on Nov 14th that will determine where I stand. Pretty much will determine what I've learned in that past 8 years...lol Its like a CPA type of exam. I suck at taking test. OY! Puke feelings are starting to come back.
My other class is Advanced Accounting and it doesn't seem terrible. There will be alot of Team involvement. Just great because I love waiting around for others to get done and have my grade be depended on others. (insert sarcasim)
I know ya'll probably aren't too interested in school hooplah but this means so much to me. I'm gonna be the first college graduate in my family. I will finally finish something that I have begun. This is a very important timeline of my life.
Monday, October 27, 2008
Friday, October 24, 2008
Junior is ALL boy...
and nothing keeps him busy. He spends most of the time in the kitchen taking my pots out of the cabinets. He picks up anything he can find and puts it somewhere else.
Yesterday he put a crayola stool inside a Bratz toy car. How is that even possible?? Its a big stool. LMAO!!
He is constantly climbing the sofa. He climbs all the way to the top and then I have to rescue him. And that throwing phase is still not going away. He throws my cell phone, the remote, really big toys. His strength is incredible.
I need to keep him busy. Nothing keeps him busy for longer than 2 minutes.
Then all I hear in the background is Amelia yelling. "Junie stop. No Junie. Get off Junie. Mama, Junior is touching me. Junior is grabbing me."
Oy!!!! OY!! OY!!!
Yesterday he put a crayola stool inside a Bratz toy car. How is that even possible?? Its a big stool. LMAO!!
He is constantly climbing the sofa. He climbs all the way to the top and then I have to rescue him. And that throwing phase is still not going away. He throws my cell phone, the remote, really big toys. His strength is incredible.
I need to keep him busy. Nothing keeps him busy for longer than 2 minutes.
Then all I hear in the background is Amelia yelling. "Junie stop. No Junie. Get off Junie. Mama, Junior is touching me. Junior is grabbing me."
Oy!!!! OY!! OY!!!
Monday, October 20, 2008
My new hairdo...
So I got my haircut alot shorter than I wanted. I almost panicked when I saw how short it was but once my hair dresser Luisa blow dried it, I saw it wasn't that bad. So tell me what ya think.
BEFORE: This is what it usually looks like after I get it done... but rarely stays this nice.
BEFORE: This is what my crazy curls usually look like and I hate them.
AFTER: This is my new hairdo...
BEFORE: This is what it usually looks like after I get it done... but rarely stays this nice.
BEFORE: This is what my crazy curls usually look like and I hate them.
AFTER: This is my new hairdo...
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Teenage years, here they come!!
I've been volunteered to take Deija and her friends bowling on sunday.
How did that happen? Well the lovely girls planned the bowling date and then told their mom's that Deija's mom will be driving them. Ha! Of course, Deija just asked if I could take her and her friends bowling.
I started to think that I could just drop them off and leave since its a few blocks away from our house. But nope, they need an adult present. Now I have to stay there too..?
Why can't another mom go instead of me? I have things to do on sunday.
Deija says that I'm the cool mom. I have no idea how I got that title but I'll take it and run before I start being the mean strict ole mother. :)
In addition to that, yesterday Deija's friend came over right after Deija had went to her dad's house overnight. The friend was carrying all these books and looked so frustrated. She is 9.
I told her Deija had just left and she gave me this sad look. I asked her if she needed anything. She said she wanted Deija to help her with her homework. I told her I could help if she wanted. So she came inside and I helped her. Thank goodness Deija was once in 3rd grade and just 3 years ago. It was still fresh in my mind.
I asked if her mom was still working. She said no, but that her mom was really stressed and she didn't want to bother her.
The little girl is so considerate. I bet Deija isn't like that...lol
How did that happen? Well the lovely girls planned the bowling date and then told their mom's that Deija's mom will be driving them. Ha! Of course, Deija just asked if I could take her and her friends bowling.
I started to think that I could just drop them off and leave since its a few blocks away from our house. But nope, they need an adult present. Now I have to stay there too..?
Why can't another mom go instead of me? I have things to do on sunday.
Deija says that I'm the cool mom. I have no idea how I got that title but I'll take it and run before I start being the mean strict ole mother. :)
In addition to that, yesterday Deija's friend came over right after Deija had went to her dad's house overnight. The friend was carrying all these books and looked so frustrated. She is 9.
I told her Deija had just left and she gave me this sad look. I asked her if she needed anything. She said she wanted Deija to help her with her homework. I told her I could help if she wanted. So she came inside and I helped her. Thank goodness Deija was once in 3rd grade and just 3 years ago. It was still fresh in my mind.
I asked if her mom was still working. She said no, but that her mom was really stressed and she didn't want to bother her.
The little girl is so considerate. I bet Deija isn't like that...lol
My munchkins are doing so well at the sitters.
Junior is so good at the sitters. He isn't throwing stuff around. He isn't yelling much and takes long naps. Ha! So why doesn't that happen at home? That's because he is such a show off in front of his Mama. He knows his mom is going find everything he does cute so he gets away with it.
His latest thing is putting his head between my legs while I'm standing. Then he giggles. When I pick him up, he claps. Then after I put him down he just swings his legs in the air so I don't let him go. I just sit him on the floor. Of course, he has to clap again.
Amelia is doing great too. Except for she refuses to use the potty over there. The first day she peed 5 times on herself. I'm so done with potty training. I'm just gonna let her potty train herself when she's 18.
Other than that, they are really happy over at the sitter's house.
And the best part is how my house is still semi-decent when I get home. They usually did a great job at trashing it when they were home all day.
His latest thing is putting his head between my legs while I'm standing. Then he giggles. When I pick him up, he claps. Then after I put him down he just swings his legs in the air so I don't let him go. I just sit him on the floor. Of course, he has to clap again.
Amelia is doing great too. Except for she refuses to use the potty over there. The first day she peed 5 times on herself. I'm so done with potty training. I'm just gonna let her potty train herself when she's 18.
Other than that, they are really happy over at the sitter's house.
And the best part is how my house is still semi-decent when I get home. They usually did a great job at trashing it when they were home all day.
Monday, October 13, 2008
Quiz. Are you anal retentive??
LOL. Why is this not new news??? LMAO!!
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Albert goes back to daywork, Kids go to babysitters.
Today is Albert's first day at his old job. He hasn't worked the dayshift since I just pregnant with Junior. We had decided then that we couldn't afford childcare for two children so he was a stay at home dad. 3 months ago he started a night job at a furniture warehouse and then just got an offer to come back to work at the Steel Plant where he was a Forman.
I had forgotten what its like to get things ready for the kids and drop them off. Luckily our neighbor is our babysitter. She is great. She is 19 and expecting her first child next month. She lives with her mom and her mom helps with our kids.
She's been our sitter for the past 3 months but only for 2 hours a day.
I had to get her the high chair, extra clothes, diapers for Jr, food, and all that other good stuff.
The kids were happy staying there. I love that their house is so clean and no clutter anywhere. Makes me feel happy.
Deija was off school today for Columbus Day so she went next door too. I thought I'd feel weird leaving the kids but I didn't. I feel they are in great hands.
The good thing is that Albert will be home by 5 just like me. We only saw each other on the weekends and it was really putting a burden on us. I always felt like I was the only one doing anything. Now we'll both be home in the evenings together with the kids. I can't wait to get home already.
I had forgotten what its like to get things ready for the kids and drop them off. Luckily our neighbor is our babysitter. She is great. She is 19 and expecting her first child next month. She lives with her mom and her mom helps with our kids.
She's been our sitter for the past 3 months but only for 2 hours a day.
I had to get her the high chair, extra clothes, diapers for Jr, food, and all that other good stuff.
The kids were happy staying there. I love that their house is so clean and no clutter anywhere. Makes me feel happy.
Deija was off school today for Columbus Day so she went next door too. I thought I'd feel weird leaving the kids but I didn't. I feel they are in great hands.
The good thing is that Albert will be home by 5 just like me. We only saw each other on the weekends and it was really putting a burden on us. I always felt like I was the only one doing anything. Now we'll both be home in the evenings together with the kids. I can't wait to get home already.
Sunday, October 12, 2008
America's First Zoo
Yesterday turned out to be a good day. Albert didn't move out. He's gonna give us another try. So I suggested we go out and do something different rather than sitting in the house finding new ways to annoy each other.
We took the kids to the zoo. I hadn't been there in years. This was Amelia and Junior's first time at the zoo.
When we got there we realized that it was worth getting the one year family package and we can keep coming back when we run out of places to take the kids. Last week the zoo had camp and the kids got to spend the night at the zoo. For Halloween they are having a parade and the kids can come dressed up in their costumes.
Okay so here are some pics. Please bare that these are with my cell phone. My digi cam is broke.
We took the kids to the zoo. I hadn't been there in years. This was Amelia and Junior's first time at the zoo.
When we got there we realized that it was worth getting the one year family package and we can keep coming back when we run out of places to take the kids. Last week the zoo had camp and the kids got to spend the night at the zoo. For Halloween they are having a parade and the kids can come dressed up in their costumes.
Okay so here are some pics. Please bare that these are with my cell phone. My digi cam is broke.
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Update
So where should I start? I'm feeling better today. I'm not Niagara Falls today.
We'll have to see what the future holds. God has something in store for us. I like to believe I'm not a terrible person. I have a good heart and my intentions for everything I do, come from my heart.
I also like to believe that the Valentin Family doesn't end here. I've always been a fighter and I refuse to let this journey end here. He will realize that we are part of a package. This will not work if we aren't all together. But I also want to be loved just for me. I know we have children together and he can't put them through this but I would want him to realize that "I'm" the reason he's really staying.
I'm actually surprised I haven't cried today. I've always been a crier.
I woke up with my "big girl" pants on today. I will leave everything in the hands of God. God knows I'm exhausted but he will hold my hand so we can prevail.
This is the only photo we have of us 5 together.
We'll have to see what the future holds. God has something in store for us. I like to believe I'm not a terrible person. I have a good heart and my intentions for everything I do, come from my heart.
I also like to believe that the Valentin Family doesn't end here. I've always been a fighter and I refuse to let this journey end here. He will realize that we are part of a package. This will not work if we aren't all together. But I also want to be loved just for me. I know we have children together and he can't put them through this but I would want him to realize that "I'm" the reason he's really staying.
I'm actually surprised I haven't cried today. I've always been a crier.
I woke up with my "big girl" pants on today. I will leave everything in the hands of God. God knows I'm exhausted but he will hold my hand so we can prevail.
This is the only photo we have of us 5 together.
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
I feel like my world is crashing.
I have decided that this blog is not for sad relationship who-blah.
But I wanted to share that the name of the blog might be changing. Albert and I are going thru a rough patch and might be separating. We'll need all the prayers we can get to help us get through this.
But I wanted to share that the name of the blog might be changing. Albert and I are going thru a rough patch and might be separating. We'll need all the prayers we can get to help us get through this.
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Friday, October 3, 2008
Amelia and Junior had their wellness check-ups
Junior is 24lbs and 32in tall. Amelia is 31lbs and 37in tall.
They are so unbelievably close in stats.
Junior is due to go back when he's 2 years old. That will be in April. Dr Roberts said that he is right on track and not to worry about his speech. She said boys take longer than girls to develop. Why does that sounds so familiar? Oh must be because I'm still waiting for Albert to catch up with me and he's two years older.
I'm not happy about the typical speech response. I knew she would say that.
Junior only has two words in his vocabulary. That and dada.
She said that since he claps and kisses when asked that his communication skills are right on target.
Of course Albert mocks me and says I expect him to do my college homework.
I just want him to say mama or cup or ball or something. Why doesn't anyone get that?
He got two shots today and he was not happy at all.
Amelia got her vision checked. They pulled out shapes and had her call them out. She then had a hearing test which she passed with flying colors. Amelia doesn't have to come back until next year for her annual check up. She had a Hep B shot though. Its the last shot she needed. She's done now.
I can't wait to get home and spend some time with them.
I'm looking forward to taking them to a pumpkin patch sometime this weekend. I hope it happens. I gotta work this weekend and I'm hoping for one of my parties to fall thru so I can take them to get their pumpkins.
They are so unbelievably close in stats.
Junior is due to go back when he's 2 years old. That will be in April. Dr Roberts said that he is right on track and not to worry about his speech. She said boys take longer than girls to develop. Why does that sounds so familiar? Oh must be because I'm still waiting for Albert to catch up with me and he's two years older.
I'm not happy about the typical speech response. I knew she would say that.
Junior only has two words in his vocabulary. That and dada.
She said that since he claps and kisses when asked that his communication skills are right on target.
Of course Albert mocks me and says I expect him to do my college homework.
I just want him to say mama or cup or ball or something. Why doesn't anyone get that?
He got two shots today and he was not happy at all.
Amelia got her vision checked. They pulled out shapes and had her call them out. She then had a hearing test which she passed with flying colors. Amelia doesn't have to come back until next year for her annual check up. She had a Hep B shot though. Its the last shot she needed. She's done now.
I can't wait to get home and spend some time with them.
I'm looking forward to taking them to a pumpkin patch sometime this weekend. I hope it happens. I gotta work this weekend and I'm hoping for one of my parties to fall thru so I can take them to get their pumpkins.
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Where had she been all my life?
After I put the kids to bed, I watched some tv upstairs. Amelia wanted me to read her a book. I told her it was too dark and we didn't want to wake up Junior. She said "okay, well can you read it to me when its light out". I said of course.
She decided last night that she wanted to lay in my right arm instead of my left one for a change. As I switched her over I kissed her neck really fast and made her laugh. She tells me "mama, lets talk". I asked what she wanted to talk about. She says "I don't know". I asked her if she wanted to talk about her nose. She giggled. Then I asked how about your chin. She giggled again. I kept naming body parts. She thought it was the funniest conversation ever.
She stops and gives me a hug. Then says "mama, I love your hair".
My hair was curly and really bushy. Something I'm never proud of. But she made me feel so special. I just hugged her and asked her "why did it take you so long to come into my life?" "I waited and waited for you and you didn't want to come join me". I just squeezed her even harder. She says "mama, I can't breathe, get off me". I told her that I missed her. She turned around and just went to sleep.
I just watched her and Junior sleep.
She decided last night that she wanted to lay in my right arm instead of my left one for a change. As I switched her over I kissed her neck really fast and made her laugh. She tells me "mama, lets talk". I asked what she wanted to talk about. She says "I don't know". I asked her if she wanted to talk about her nose. She giggled. Then I asked how about your chin. She giggled again. I kept naming body parts. She thought it was the funniest conversation ever.
She stops and gives me a hug. Then says "mama, I love your hair".
My hair was curly and really bushy. Something I'm never proud of. But she made me feel so special. I just hugged her and asked her "why did it take you so long to come into my life?" "I waited and waited for you and you didn't want to come join me". I just squeezed her even harder. She says "mama, I can't breathe, get off me". I told her that I missed her. She turned around and just went to sleep.
I just watched her and Junior sleep.
Last night I had planned to do nothing at all.
However, I spend the entire evening last night looking for the friggin REMOTE!!!
I didn't cook, I didn't do housechores, I didn't do anything but turn the house upside down looking for the remote to the TV downstairs.
It was one of those days where I wanted to go home and just lay on the couch for once. I mentioned on the entry below how I was already stressing at work and needed some relaxation.
Deija lost the remote and Albert was at work. She had the tv on MTV. We got comcast so it's not like I could switch the channels from the box. I don't have any cable upstairs so no extra remote around the house.
I just wanted to put "On Demand" for the kids while I got online for a little while then watch tv.
To top it off - I couldn't find any DVDs for the kids to watch. Everything was regular movies that would entertain them one bit.
Can I just say I am not a fan of MTV...
This morning Albert found the remote in a empty cereal box. Junior apparently found a new spot for it.
I didn't cook, I didn't do housechores, I didn't do anything but turn the house upside down looking for the remote to the TV downstairs.
It was one of those days where I wanted to go home and just lay on the couch for once. I mentioned on the entry below how I was already stressing at work and needed some relaxation.
Deija lost the remote and Albert was at work. She had the tv on MTV. We got comcast so it's not like I could switch the channels from the box. I don't have any cable upstairs so no extra remote around the house.
I just wanted to put "On Demand" for the kids while I got online for a little while then watch tv.
To top it off - I couldn't find any DVDs for the kids to watch. Everything was regular movies that would entertain them one bit.
Can I just say I am not a fan of MTV...
This morning Albert found the remote in a empty cereal box. Junior apparently found a new spot for it.
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
When I get home I'm hugging my kids...
I'm so stressed at work today.
I keep reminding myself that one day I'll get out of Corporate America and have financial freedom and people working for me instead. My boss is going thru a "Pick on Jessica" phase. Either that or he needs to let his frustrations out and I'm the gee-nee pig today. I desperately need some relaxation. I'm so stressed that only screaming might make me feel better.
Yesterday when I got home I just wanted to curl up in bed and eat. I'm just in that mood lately. I have to say that I am so overwhelmed with work, school, and PR parties that I feel like I need to escape. Well let me tell you that I never got to curl up in bed like I wanted to. First I started cleaning downstairs and then we did our Halloween decorating. Afterwards I heated up some food for the kids and attempted to watch TV when I remembered that I had a lady coming over to sign up for Pure Romance.
She came over with her kids and I got to chat a little which felt good. Then off to bed we went.
I fantasize with running around acres and acres of grass and daisies as the sun shines down and goes thru my bones and restrengthens me. I have to escape from the city. It's so fasted paced. I am so fast paced that I can't stop to take a breathe without remembering something else I need to do.
My kids are my escape. I just need a big tight hug from each of them.
I keep reminding myself that one day I'll get out of Corporate America and have financial freedom and people working for me instead. My boss is going thru a "Pick on Jessica" phase. Either that or he needs to let his frustrations out and I'm the gee-nee pig today. I desperately need some relaxation. I'm so stressed that only screaming might make me feel better.
Yesterday when I got home I just wanted to curl up in bed and eat. I'm just in that mood lately. I have to say that I am so overwhelmed with work, school, and PR parties that I feel like I need to escape. Well let me tell you that I never got to curl up in bed like I wanted to. First I started cleaning downstairs and then we did our Halloween decorating. Afterwards I heated up some food for the kids and attempted to watch TV when I remembered that I had a lady coming over to sign up for Pure Romance.
She came over with her kids and I got to chat a little which felt good. Then off to bed we went.
I fantasize with running around acres and acres of grass and daisies as the sun shines down and goes thru my bones and restrengthens me. I have to escape from the city. It's so fasted paced. I am so fast paced that I can't stop to take a breathe without remembering something else I need to do.
My kids are my escape. I just need a big tight hug from each of them.
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