Wednesday, August 30, 2006

This pregnancy

I just got in from the doctors. I had an ultrasound, bloodwork, and spoke to the doctor. She said everything looks great. I will be seven weeks tomorrow. The ultrasound shows I am 6 weeks and a half. So I'm where I should be. She asked to see a picture of my daughters. She thought the baby was so cute and the oldest so tall and beautiful. I get ultrasounds for another 2 weeks and I'm discharged to see the OB. They want to make sure I'm out of the woods. I had 3 miscarriages before.
I feel better about the pregnancy now. My husband is more attentive now that I am pregnant. He must think I'm an oven.
I've been eating so much. I hope I don't turn into a cow right away. I will see if I can join some kind of maternity exercise class.
I have to keep healthy this time. Hopefully I'll make it full term for the first time.
I'm usually 5-6 weeks early.

Last night at 11pm someone called me about cleaning services and I was already sleeping. Then this morning I got a call at 6am for the same thing. No one wants to let me sleep.

Monday, August 21, 2006

The news that will changed my life forever...

I just found out I'm pregnant again for the sixth time. I am 5 weeks now.
I had in-vitro with my second daughter after 8 years of infertility and 3 miscarriages.
I wasn't ready for another one. I wanted to forgot about getting pregnant and all the troubles I had during my pregnancy.
I wanted a break. My baby is turning one on saturday and I'm pregnant again. OMG!!!
This was completely spontaneous.

God has a sense of humor....

Tuesday, August 8, 2006

People can be so ignorant

We had our Annual Company Saftey Luncheon today. They raffle off two prizes. One for 4 days off and $4,000 and the other for 1 day off and $1,000. Pretty good prizes. Well for starters. Someone asked me if I was coming to the Luncheon on their way over there. I said yes and got up and grabbed my bag. By the time I got to the Elevator they press the doors to close. I put my hand in and told them don't go leaving the step child now. Everyone laughed. I'm sure it was a fake laugh. My walk to the restaurant was lonely. Everyone talking to each other and I felt singled out. When we got to the restaurant they were talking to each other and I had no participation in the subjects. When food came around for people to take some and pass the dish, I kept getting skipped right over me to the next person. Each time I had to grab the plate.
The food was really good. When the time for the drawing came one lady kept repeating that I haven't been there a year yet and I shouldn't qualify. I told her thanks for putting so much focus in me. If I win the drawing you'll have to convince all these people that I don't qualify. I didn't win and neither did she. I'm glad. Then on our walk back they were walking so fast and leaving me behind. So I held my head up and just walked behind them. When they stopped I kept going like I was never following them or walking with them.

This is not the first time I get singled out.
They order lunch and never ask if I want to order anything.
They bring birthday cakes and sit in the lunch room and tell me when its all over.
When the receptionist calls out they volunteer me for the most odd times.

It's starting to get me pissed.

Monday, August 7, 2006

She ruins everything

She is terrible!!!!!
My cleaning business started as a suggestion of them finding houses to clean so they can have some extra cash and they can have something to do during their free time. I started them off by cleaning my house. I gave them $200 before I left on vacation. I wanted everything sparkling so when I came back I could redecorate. They didn't even touch my closets and spider webs on the bathroom ceiling. I was still pleased with their work. Well I started posting in the classified for jobs cleaning houses. We got a huge response. They were cleaning two houses daily for 6 days a week. My aunt told me I could turn this into a business. I told her I thought about it. So I started investing time and money into this business. All of a sudden my mom starts getting angry and saying that its too much work. I'm charging too little. People are pigs. blah blah. The next day she loves her job. The following day she can't make it... doctors appt. It went on that was for two months. I was starting to get tired of her. One day she just decided not to do a job with me. She wouldn't answer her phones and decided not to talk to me all week. Then she calls at the end of the week asking me what was a client's complaint. I told her and she said she did to the job...blah blah.
The next day she decided to quit. She called my aunt about 10 minutes before starting a new job and told her she is not working anymore. She told her because I had told her that I was paying her $8 an hour instead of keeping half the money. I NEVER told her that. What a freaking liar.
So I called her and she wouldn't answer.
She finally answered and she said that I am doing this business thing for my own benefit. Instead of doing it to find her work.
I asked her why she doesn't want me to prosper and make this into something good. I could make this into a huge company and she won't even need to work a day in her life. I told her she is very ungrateful. I am paying for advertising, cleaning products, vaccums. She sees it like I'm not doing anything.

I told her that all my problems are because of her. She just wants and wants and never gives and just hurts my feelings for no reason at all.

Now I'm stuck without her. Only my aunt is cleaning. My aunt is going to Puerto Rico this week for two weeks to care for my grandparents. I hired two new people but who knews if people will like them.

I'm at the point where this business will just fall apart or I give it a big push into success.